Possessed
October 22, 2007
I have a very strong desire for SOMETHING
that becomes so INTENSE it blacks out
EVERYTHING else in my life and becomes
a white-hot focal point that INCINERATES
my mental STABILITY
These petty and fleeting desires range from
the mundane desire for a certain type dog
to the recent all consuming insanity of buying a motorcycle
When the need for some OBJECT gets
ingrained into my mind I can’t SLEEP for
thinking of how to GET it, I can’t WORK
for dreaming of how much BETTER my life will
be once I get this:________________
1) pretty play thing or
2) object of my desire
I am undecided on that line.. funny to say that here though isn’t it?
I become consumed by GREED
I become ENVIOUS of others who have IT
I become HATEFUL and BITTER for lack of having it
The TRUTH is, it is not the OBJECT that
matters to me, it is the EXPERIENCE of it that
I hope for, the ever burning DESIRE that
maybe, just maybe, THIS TIME, THIS THING
WILL MAKE ME HAPPY.. JUST THIS ONE THING.
